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I look at myself and wonder, why do I say the things i say? Mabye I'll end up in hell, but... does it matter anyway? This world I've locked myself in, is it real at all? All the wrong things that i do, how much more till i fall? The people I surround myself with, will they even care? I think I've convinced myself, now ... will i take the dare? Yes i decide, to live is not enough. I've made my decision, now comes the part with the knife Have I taken my life? I think the job is done. first there was light, now I'm just gone That was easy

I look around, Whats going on? The World was here before, but now it's a fog Faster & faster I fall so deep Is it possible I'm dead? Or am i just asleep? The deeper i fall the easier it gets and the less hard it is to look back at my regrets Then it gets bad. Like a blanket of cold. And I know I am gone BUT NO! I had a goal! This cant be true, Why do i die? I guess i lost hope And all i wanted was to fly

Things call to me all the time I try to hide But all these things are mine THe scissors sitting on the desk They beg to draw blood But no, I have to pass the test The mirror on the wall It wants to be broken Wants to be used i think it wants it all i dont need much convincing "I'll be fine" I say "Look at them and what their giving" The mirror reflects nothing shattered on the floor But take a look It's not the only thing not breathing

i always look into your eyes to see the love i once saw there but lately if I take a glance all i see is an angry glare First it caught me by surprise i see now what I've done but now i realize what you want and i know you want me gone so now that I know it's simple to me to open myself and let it all bleed goodbye, my love I'll see you soon for now you know you destroyed a rose in bloom

Every night i have a dream & it hurts so deep inside to see him looking at me with a sad look in his eyes I look at him and wonder why it hurts to be alive but my eye starts to wonder & i see a gleam of white I look into his hand and see what seems to be a knife suddenly it's up real close & I cant plead for my life His look of saddness is not gone but still he does what he thinks is right the knife is melting though my skin but i dont seem to mind I go limp and i know it's done & I've gone to whats inside But wait, my eyes are open i think i'm where i want to be or am i ? because i see a gleam of white in YOUR h

     When I close my eyes i see somone, I see his face with a soft expresion, full lips, and staigh white teeth. I feel his eyes staring into mine & i look up, his eyes change from clear olive green to a stormy gray, it's like looking into an angry ocean. they are shaped like almonds. Emotions are pouring out of them like bitter tears.     My hands move up to his short sandy hair & I touch it, it feels like silk. Suddenly his hand reaches up for mine. I am surprised, his hands are rough, but his movements are smooth and caring.     He moves my hand up to his cheek it is soft and warm and the perfect size for a kiss. The flesh of his ch

i cant get these things out of my head! everytime i look at you. i might as well me dead. does it make sence to not stop? after its gone will i  not love? have you seen how i speak? and how i look your way? please help me, i'm weak. i made a mistake now i'm paying the price i'll go now, my life to take.

I cant stand it anymore nothing I do is right I let you go & now i'm filled with fright Im alone & I know i shouldn't You told me you loved me But i just couldn't It was difficult because loving back is somthing i'v never done I tried to tell you but you were already gone It was me I made the mistake I was the one That caused my heart to break Now i have to go theres my life to take Unless you change your mind Because only you decide my fate

goodbye my love i'll soon be gone dont expect me to be here by the crack of dawn i will lay on my bed but wont get though the night i will lay there and think and will cry with delight i dont know what to feel is it supposed to be like this? i wouldn't know, but... can i have ONE more kiss? i am satisfied now i can die please don't fail me i'll see you tonight

did you say you loved me? did i hear you right? i'm sorry if i didn't you see, i was dead last night and i dont think i'v woken from that deadly sleep will you not tell? will you my secret keep? secrets so deep what can i do? i dont think you should know but i love you it's somthing i can't control it's not logic to me the image of you it just wont let me be this love, it kills like stepping on tacks i cant stand the pain please say you love me back i'm sorry my love i'v decided my fate i'm sure you tryed but you were too late